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Sunday, December 22nd, 2002
3:30 pm	wheres the beef? so im in town now...pretty alright..glad to sxee my rants and sis...going to work in like 2 hours at FYE..haha i got this huge fucking hickey on my neck(long story) DAMNIT KASEY AND CHRISSY!:)past two days ive seen the terminators and runnamucks twice which is rad:) ryan we got asked to play a house show new years...well how lame is fucking G-ville fest and the kids going...nothing too say but unfriendly nods...The bands are so typical and christian...i want to go to thrash fest with robbie and nick but just cant do it...RYAN so if you are under 18 you need a parent with you or a note from you rents to get into g-ville fest how fucking lame!!!!!laughing at anyone who goes to g-ville fest...i hope you all break your necks while trying to be cool...i miss kasey already and ryan smooches to both! i want to hang with danielle sutton but i dont think shell do it....ok im gonna go skate before i gots to go to work cheers! Current Mood: high Current Music: the terminators "tear it up" (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, December 9th, 2002
6:19 pm	live for today.... i just got into work and i was excited too work with my sister:) well i was talking with cammie about kaseys' christmas present...mags cell phone rang and it was my mum...mag looks at me and says"get ready for bad news" i figured it was my dad telling me about responsibility cvrap...it was my mom telling me my very good friend john died of a heart attack...22 and he died...i cried instantly...its weird because i just talked to him the 2 weeks ago and we were both excited because he was moving here too orlando..i was so stoked because john wa sa fucking good friend of mine and a rad persn in general..im gonna miss him.... Amanda im so dearly sorry about your friend who has cancer...i send my best too her and if you need too talk you rae still; my amander blander! 407-362-3102 give me a call amanda and anyone i used too hang with sean,bryan just call me sometime i hate being out of touch (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, November 29th, 2002
11:20 am	yo yo kate!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!3>3>3> so last night was awesome!!! i went and saw megan gulland!!! MY bfff! best friend for fucksake!i miss her like krazy! I miss kate my polish princess as well!! kate my new number is 407 362-3102 call me tonight around 9!! i want too talk too you!! So megs and i are going to hang today before my ass if out of here...so im looking forward too that...we finally finished our best bud posters that werent finished from july i think hahah anyways im so glad i got too see her! and im gonna stop at bk to see if kate is working! but ok more later..hahahah!! willie is sitting here begging for a piece of cake im eating and he just burped...gawd hes fat hahahhaha (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, November 28th, 2002
2:29 pm	woah woah... yo yo! so its been a long while since i updated because fucking knights korner sux my load...cant wait too move out of that smear of shit...so i didnt come back to the parents house last night..instead hung out with kasey..had lots of fun...went too a party by the lakeside..with mad amounts of womens make up on hahah we did each others make up i looked like a mad cross dresser and kasey just looked mutha fuckin skary:)ummmm BRYAN!!!! if ou get that show shit together...we wanted too know if we could tear the dance floor up for about 10 minutes? 10 songs 10 minutes fast punk thrash 82 circa with an attitude and a anti-people kind of message... we are called Xsammy hagarX let me know if you can spare a few minutes for us too play man...so i dont know whats been going on....hanging with many folk in otown..doing my own thing as always...covered in tatoos right now with my smelly LARM shirt and patch covered shorts...smelling like a sewer...my birthday was really good..i enjoyed myself alot..ehh im kind of tired..kasey didnt leave until the usual time of 530 am and i woke up around 1130 this mornign too come here to citrus county..i want too hang with KAsey...gawd shes scrumptious...haha if i spelled that shit right...awww for my bday...she made me a big cake and decorated it was soo good too..thanks too her and ryan and mags and drew for being such awesome people...kisses to all of them! too anyone who thinks fucking sex pistols and faggots liek that were real punk fucking open your eyes asshole..pick up a fear or crass album bitches...or the germs much better than those hot topic bands...RYAN!! check out the kontrovers...totally tragedy meets a crust-a-holic meets doom...good shit ok have a happy thanksgiving everyone might pull off that house show with the runnAmucks, terminators and some others so if so you better come represent or dont talk too us anymore...BYE! I "heart" KAsey Current Mood: smelly Current Music: DS-13 "degenerated generation" (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, November 23rd, 2002
10:26 am	last night was killer so last ngiht went too sound idea in brandon with ryan,casey, my kasey:), and saw the runn-A-mucks, tragedy and blackout terror...rad f-in show...ryan and i had sudden outbursts in te pit that were fun...jumping on those kids backs when they did the wall of death hahah...anyways i luv you ryan..thanxxx for everything man! i love kasey soo much! tongiht going to go-karts with mags,drew,kasey,ryan kaley, ashli for my bday hooray! but yah day..lets just be friend s dude! ok more later XsammyhagarX (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, November 20th, 2002
7:45 pm	yah im doing good i am...im doing well...cant wait too go see tragedy and the runnamucks...saw dayleane the other night...that was weird as shit...she was harsh so whatever...im over it haha...ummm the past weekend was fucking krazy ehhh im still feeling nausea...but my bday is on saturday woo woo! tommorow going dowbntown with kaley and ashli should be fun..they are good gals...cant believe iu saw elvis bryan at the independant bar how funny i love that asshoole!!! well im at work so im out and about...dude i hate when people write down poems and shit in their ljs like we care what they say and fucking we dont know what you are thinking about so its pointless...holy geezus xsammy hagarx (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, November 6th, 2002
6:48 pm	80s mania at cb&s so ive been sitting here in work talking with laura who is a really nice girl...shes pretty rad actually..no one has come into the store for atleast an hour now..im so bored..i find myslef sitting there thinking of Kasey and getting that warm feeling inside..its great:) cant wait until melt banana tommorow and than on friday band practice should be rad...for all of you who hate thrash..im sorry you are missing out fucka...combat wounded on sunday as well..should be killer as well! ehhh im gonna go close down with laura i feel bad over and out...hit it johnny..i hope kasey calls me tonight Current Mood: thoughtful Current Music: 80s blasting on the overhead speakers..its really good thoug (2 Comments |Comment on this)
11:40 am	sometimes i wish i wasnt me... well, i look back at my past and have sooo many regrets...i cant stand that fact...i mis alot of people that i havent talked too in a long time...sigh*...hung out with kasey last night..we watched monsoon wedding..a movie based in India..it was suprisingly good...im starting too fall in love..its a great thing but im still kind of in the "dont keep your hopes up" mode....a huge sorry goes out too dayleane..i think we shold just stop talking for good...im a jerk to you all the time and you dont deserve that shit so this is my goodbye too you...why hello danielle! nice too see you online again:) but thats it for now...im listening to Nientara and wishing the band was practicing right now..i just wrote a killer song thats of course thrashy as fuck!! (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, November 4th, 2002
10:50 pm	i must say im impressed.. well we just got done practicing and it went soo well...we gots two songs written that rip..practice on friday night and friday evening...yah we rip...thrashin in life..thrshin in death....thrashin in heeeeelllllll!!!!666 (Comment on this)
7:09 pm	ehhh..... so i havent updated in awhile...im in work as of right now...boring as hell...things have been descent as of late...hunng out with kasey for 7 dayz straight hahah im so into that gal....a HUGE muah* thats a kiss....goes to kasey for being there when i needed her..she knows what i mean...i dont know what i would have done without you there that night babes...made the bbig move...basically done packing and all that junk so thats a relief...went too the football game with chrissy and chris and some others...met kasey at the game...we all were at the tailgating party oh my gawd...i think i drink 7 beers in 20 minutes it was so funnyy and fun..i met lots of people...if you didnt know im a friendly drunk so yah...more on that later...so combat.wounded.veteran the 10th of this month...who dares to go? band practice tonight..happy aboot that...bla blah blah i want to see kasey...i always do though so...im afraid im getting boring too her though but it may just be me.....ok talk to you all later ...oh coming to cc next saturday too see topher...gonna go to annas party...hahah tru cant wait too drink with toph:) but ok later (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, October 23rd, 2002
11:11 pm	EVERYONE GO TO THIS go to fastcore.com and look at the pix from the last asshole parade show...look of rthe kid in the white and red trucker hat and red collared shirt and youll see me:) its funny (5 Comments |Comment on this)
10:41 pm	i can hear your voice but do i want too? so im sitting here in the dark..looking at the flame my candle i burning in my shadow box...ive been bored today...went too work..worked with Lisa who is a sweetheart...she cut my hair today hahah its been lonely today...most of the day ive been by myself here in this cave known as our ex-apartment...ryan and i make the big move on the 31st...gonna dress like a cowboy for Halloween...and go to parties with Kasey..hahah should be funny...talked to KAsey for awhile..its been almost two months since we met...seems like yesterday we were just making plans to go get coffee just too get to know each other:) i burned the rad-est cd yesterday with the likes of infestation of ass and no comment, lack of interest etc etc on their..its fucking great...gonna go see the glorida record on Saturday..should be fun! cant wait..afterwards going to the halloween cover show with new mexican disaster squad redoing the disco. of minor threat..hell yah lets get a mutha fucking circle pit in this biatch! talked to my boy topher last night...gonna go see his band play the 22nd of november, im excited for his ass...hes my mutha fucking boy and i love him....one of my best friends man...no doubt...ive had some relationships fall through with kids over in citrus county there but im better off any fucking way...no matter i gots KAsey and DA Pagan and mutha fucking drew and mags...rob nick who the fuck else..i dont know...so i have to get up at 10 in the morning for class ehhh too early for me...met a girl named April..one of Danielles friends...shes a nice gal..glad i got too talk with ehr..April the offer still stands:) always welcomed in our apt. too live back on the topic of falling through relationships...if you have to question the fact..than fuck you and leave me alone..stay out of my gat-damn life because im better off without your stupid ass....so i hope topher did good with his interview at FY mutha fucking E im gonna be working over there this break but im going to Chicago maybe with Robbie and Nick for Thrash Fest 4 where DS-13 is having their last show..it was supposed to be with E.T.A in Sweden but i guess that wasnt enough for them! YAY!Damn im writing a fucking novel about how i like Kasey so much and basically nothing else hahaha oh goddamn someone is doing covers at that halloween show...they are pulling off bodycount...Ice-T;s old band COP KILLA! hahaah jesus! oh man KAsey and i are going camping maybe tommorow in her two person tent ooo-lala...hahah if we can figure out how to set thatt shit up..ehh last night there was a comet shower...KAsey saisd she made some wishes but wouldnt tall me:) she said they were good though..tru tru!:) im out guys and if we did fall through take me off your list dont talk to me again..dont even call this number...we are getting a new number so if we give it too you we want you to talk to us..if not FUCK OFF!!! hahah buh-bye bitches Current Mood: bored Current Music: Bishop of Hexen "primeval tragedies" and Ordo Draconis (Comment on this)
Tuesday, October 22nd, 2002
8:12 pm	lyrics from absence of faith/patricidal youth we dont know what our name is yet... "Shit talking to replace the urge I have to point and laugh at you" Feminist, yeah i can laugh at that If we're labeling ourselves,then i'm the cat in the hat It takes more than "fuck" talk to make you unoppressed You still believe in jesus, right there now THATS progressive You think youre different than all the rest - you're not Only reason I was blinded by this is cause - you're hot But youre not in these eyes, not anymore Cause you're fucking dumb admit it, your rationale is flawed and i think you're fucking lame we know whose bound for chains accepting jesus to the grave FUCK! And you had me fucking pissed the night you said i'd grow out of it Well find comfort, that you'll never see me at one of those lame bars you frequent And that the next time you see me, You'll be some dude's little lady (2 Comments |Comment on this)
8:12 pm	lyrics from absence of faith/patricidal youth we dont know what our name is yet... "Shit talking to replace the urge I have to point and laugh at you" Feminist, yeah i can laugh at that If we're labeling ourselves,then i'm the cat in the hat It takes more than "fuck" talk to make you unoppressed You still believe in jesus, right there now THATS progressive You think youre different than all the rest - you're not Only reason I was blinded by this is cause - you're hot But youre not in these eyes, not anymore Cause you're fucking dumb admit it, your rationale is flawed and i think you're fucking lame we know whose bound for chains accepting jesus to the grave FUCK! And you had me fucking pissed the night you said i'd grow out of it Well find comfort, that you'll never see me at one of those lame bars you frequent And that the next time you see me, You'll be some dude's little lady (Comment on this)
8:10 pm	starting over is always a good thing sometimes... so last night...went to the movies with kasey my gal:) sabrina and ben...we saw the ring..it was so fucking good guys...i was so upset the movie was over...i kept jumping and shit from that damn thing...it was crazy and eerie, everyone should go and see it...hung out with kasey afterwards..in the process of moving all my shit...ummm i wish kasey was here...i miss her...i saw her o nthe road today..probs noticed her beecause of the bandana:) shes so cute!!! shes at the cursive show as we speak so i wish she would just come over! saturday we are going to see the GLORIA RECORD hell yah! cant wait! ummm ok things are going alright here...band practice on thursday! yay! so well see how that goes...just got back from park avenue with Drew hes so funny man...great fucking guy..OH! in April going on a cruise with the mutha fucking fam.. hahahah how funny is that gonna be...im gonna get so fucking drunk everynight! damnit! but yah im kind of sad in a way...kasey may be moving to fucking lonodn for a few months like next year so i dont know its kind of bothering me...night* Current Mood: lonley but good:) Current Music: Travis "as you are" (Comment on this)
Sunday, October 20th, 2002
12:31 am	theres nothing but smiles on this face... yay! just got a call from Kasey whos in Daytona just too say hi and she misses me...awww im so happy things are working out with us...shes so gorgeous and funny and..im into her obviously:)she doesnt normally do things like that which makes me so happy because she does them with me:) im gonna go to bed now and think of her... Current Mood: loved Current Music: coldplay "yellow" (Comment on this)
Saturday, October 19th, 2002
10:23 pm	my contacts are blurry... well...after the events that happened today..i just left the pad to go to all fired up which is the pottery place in winterpark wehre Kasey works:) She makes me so happy...shes so funny...right when mags and i got their i got the BIGGEST hug and smooch from Kasey which made me feel soooo much better...shes absolutely what i want in a girl...we laid in bed last night contemplating everything...it was great...we both got our deep feelings out to each other about each other which was really nice...we both had the thought process of...dont keep your hopes up...with each otehr when we first started to talk...because we both liked each other so much...i honestly sooo much fun with her everytime i with her...everything we do is what i always wanted to do with someone i cared about...going to the park having a picnic and wrestling...walking downtown around the huge lake and just climbing a huge tree and just talking and kissing...i mean things we have done have been so much fun...i think since weve met...weve hung out 5 or 6 days a week...i never do that with anyone and im totally not sick of her like i would be with everyone else...not ryan or nick though:)they just walked in so we were talking some...the show went good for L.H.S so im glad to hear that...but yah Kasey was telling me she never dates anyone and al her friends say i must be special because shes settling down..it made me feel really good....but i really hope shes havinga good time in daytona..its Chrissys birthday in actually a minute...so her and her girlfriends went down to Daytona...BIKETOBERFEST hahah...today has been very emotional for me though...i mean so many thoughts were going through my head as i cried hysterically...especially about my grandfather...i had a discussio nwith that with my sister...but ok im gonna go do what needs to be done and think about Kasey haha:) im cheesy goodnight kids...im so relieved thigns worked out with nick and i... Current Mood: mellow Current Music: appleseed cast "end of ring wars" (Comment on this)
11:55 am	why do i always get the finger pointed in my direction? i really cant believe whats already happened on this fine saturday morning....things have absolutely gone down the shitter...ive lost a good friend....we may get evicted....i cant fo anything but cry...not too mention my family problems...im so scared to see whats at the end of this tunnel....Nick man im sorry for whats happened...youre my bro man....im just so scared......i cant leave school but if we get evicted than thats teh end of that and living here in orlando....my parents wont take me back because well...they dont want me to live thier....i think someone has put an ill omen on me or something because things arent looking to favorable...i have a huge welt on my forehead because of a b'b gun....its killing me.... Current Mood: sad Current Music: pat benetar (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, October 15th, 2002
2:15 pm	Some people were meant to Rock N' Roll so ive been doing shti for myself today, kind of down but whatever...studied a little bit...gots to call Kasey...we are meeting up after my 530 class to go to Savers...get me some bell-bottoms brown ones! Yah Dayleane if you want to come get your keyboard thats cool man..i dont care:) so yah things are going...alright...dad has cancer and my dog is dying so im pretty sad about that..holloween is coming up...might dress like wayne and garth with ryan or just a cowboy who knows...gots some parties to go to that night...tru tru...saw this guy nick who used to go to lecanto today at valencia hahah who wouldve known...anyways im gonna go call my gal...so take it eaze' ps eaze E is dead and i STILL find it hilarious Current Mood: heartattack "panic" Current Music: M urder City Devils "another round of you" (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, October 12th, 2002
11:40 pm	wall of death the System... well...yesterday was very fun...we missed bingo though...got drunk as a skunk with kasey,ryan and nick..robbie came over...so did theese kids i was talking to at the gas station..they are alright kids...hahah did much more things...went bolwing at like 3 in the morning at the 80 lane alley...fucking funny..in the end 6 balls stuck in the lanes and my shoe as well hahahah...afterwards went to the jacuzzi and pool with kasey..it was fun..we went without swimming trunks...TRU! Came back to my place...fucking got very hot..lets leave it at that...yes i think that would be good...PHew! so after going to bed at 830 in the morning..we woke up at 100...to kiss and do other things...took a shower and went to eat...but all in all awesoem time...we are officially together now which is a great feeling!!went skating today...fucking cleared a 4 step which i was happy about...i almost died though..im so out of shape hahah after 25 minutes of sweating and getting dizzy..came back layed on the couch and listened to my pat benetar record...get nervous...proceeded to go to sleep and wake up like 3 hours later...im feeling good today..dropped a letter off to Kasey at her work:) just got off the tele with her... iwas supposed to go to a toga party but i dont feel like it right now...had lots to drink last night so....the beer bong works like a charm...ok im gonna go write on my sleevless camou shire...im putting "thrash this shit" on there tru! stay tru stay thrash (Comment on this)